By Unaisa Abdul Haqq Baker
In life, we all wrestle with difficulties and challenges. None of us can escape the trials of existence, whether it’s pain, trauma, heartache, or countless other burdens. Yet, what sets some of us apart is that, for a significant portion of our lives, these adversities become our constant companions. Some of us just don’t ever escape them.
As I sit down to write this piece, I keep contemplating where to start. Initially, my intention was to expand on my journey to a place I had never imagined visiting before. Not because I didn’t want to, but because my mind was preoccupied elsewhere. My previous experiences and adventures all had something in common: the pursuit of enjoyment, the expansion of horizons, and the embrace of new experiences. My trip to Palestine was new and different, but not in the ways I expected it to be.
How can I share the beauty of this land without the looming reality of its current situation? How can I inspire my readers to add this remarkable destination to their bucket lists while acknowledging the trauma the land is experiencing right now? It’s not that my enthusiasm has disappeared; it’s the overwhelming urge to address the sombre reality that we find ourselves in one of the darkest chapters in history. Just three weeks after returning, as I was on my way home with the feeling of living in a daydream, the world I had just left began to crumble – quite literally.
I’ve titled this piece ‘Secretly Not Foreign’ for more than one reason. First and foremost, I was taken aback by the sense of belonging I experienced when arriving in Palestine. My expectation was to feel alien, out of place, and unmistakably foreign. Although we encountered similar attitudes from different members of authority and those who live there, attempting to make us feel like outsiders, it just reinforced the notion that this land was, to some extent, my home too. I had landed in the land of Muslims.
My intention in composing this narrative was to recount my experiences, from the moment we touched down to our departure back home. I aim to offer you glimpses of what it’s genuinely like to visit Palestine. However, I cannot do so without shedding light on the harsh realities faced by the Palestinian people each day. If I found their way of life heart-wrenching just over three weeks ago, how could I begin to describe their day-to-day lives now?
Arriving in Jaffa
Commonly known as Tel Aviv, arriving at the airport was an experience in itself. As we were boarding, I kept thinking about how interesting the group of passengers must look. The plane consisted of mostly Muslims and Jews, all ready to fly overseas to visit the exact location, but completely different lands.
The journey wasn’t long – just under 5 hours. And as I previously hadn’t been around predominantly Jewish areas, I wasn’t familiar with hearing Hebrew. But the duration of the flight was a good amount of time to be able to recognise when it was being spoken. Every moment felt like an opportunity to learn something new, and I was certainly keen.
Upon arrival, I have to be honest about not knowing what to expect. As soon as you enter the airport, you’re met with a ‘Welcome to Israel’ sign with a picture of a little girl holding the flag high. The passport checks are always routine of course, but being asked particular questions was new. Apparently, what is also quite common is to have your passports taken whilst waiting a couple of hours for the border control clearance process. It isn’t unusual for you to be asked to answer a couple of questions either however, I wasn’t one of those people thankfully.
As passports are no longer stamped there, the process of receiving the card (always to be carried along with your passport) wasn’t short. But in those three hours, I continued to observe and wonder what to expect from this trip, excited and partially nervous. A kind member of the airport brought our group sandwiches but I wasn’t hungry at the time. I was just ready to make our way to Majid Al-Aqsa.
Finally, whilst waiting for our tour guides to gather everyone to board the coach, I sat down and waited. I noticed someone had left their passport on the chair beside me and instinctively I picked it up. I found myself staring at it once I realised it was a resident’s passport, wondering at what this document symbolised, “State of Israel.” After deciding I wouldn’t really know how to go about finding its owner, I put it back down. This wasn’t a place I blended in, and I didn’t want to make that more apparent than it already was.
Everything felt a little like a whirlwind – yet moving in slow motion. I was constantly entranced by how different the people around me looked. From attire to mannerisms, and to be surrounded by signs in both Hebrew and Arabic. It felt like stepping into a different world when all I had done, was land in an airport.
Part Two
The beauty of the country was constantly combined with sad realities, all impossible to ignore. You wanted to feel excited to be in this blessed land, but that feeling couldn’t exist without its companion.
The journey towards Bayt Al Maqdis (Jerusalem) offered us sites that were both fascinating and heartbreaking. As we drove past different neighbourhoods, our tour guides educated us on what we could see. “You can distinguish the Palestinian homes from the black and white water tanks on top of their houses – their water supply is limited to filling these tanks once a month.”
But one of the most shocking truths that hasn’t left me till this day is this: some, born and raised in this country have never and will never be allowed to visit Masjid Al Aqsa, one of the holiest sites to Muslims. And all because of the mere fact that they are from the West Bank. As though being born in that part of thee country is in itself, a crime. The only snippet of an opportunity would be during Ramadan, but even then you must be under 12 or over 50.
Once we arrived, disembarking the coach felt like a breath of fresh air – as though we had finally arrived in an area we could call home. And that’s how it felt, with those around us staring in excited curiosity you couldn’t help but feel welcome. We had arrived outside the walls of the Old City, and what stood in front of us was the famous Damascus Gate. The gate where many years ago, Salah ad-Din Yusuf ibn Ayyub had entered to take back the city from the crusaders.
Walking through these gates truly felt like stepping back in time. I stopped more than once just to absorb what it was that I was looking at. This life-changing piece of history happened right here, and I felt as though I was learning about my past. What a scene that must have been and what a moment it signified even to this day.
We were suddenly surrounded by different voices and rows of shops all selling and specialising in something different. From the most colourful sweets to freshly grown olives, everyone wanted to offer something. The walk to the hotel was so vibrant and uplifting, that you could feel how animated everyone was to be here. As our group walked through the old city, there was the frequent, “Assalaamualaikum!” called out to us. What was it like to know that foreigners had come to visit your land, a place you’ve been holding onto for so many years? The words that come to mind are only my attempt to describe what I saw, reflected in their faces. They looked uplifted and reassured, perhaps because they knew we had also come to see them.
The hospitality shown by the Palestinians was quite literally at every corner. As our tour guides were frequent visitors, they shared stories and familiar exchanges with those in and out of the hotel. You knew where to get the best Shawarma and who to buy the best sweets from thanks to their regular direction and advice. It was hard not to feel looked after because of Taqwa Travels. It very quickly felt like travelling with extended family, and being introduced to relatives you didn’t even know you had. No one here felt like an outsider, because we weren’t.
Early in the trip, I quickly recognised the importance of having well-informed individuals with us when visiting a place of great historical and cultural significance. Without their expertise, there’s a massive risk of missing out on insights and perspectives that you might not expect. I was so curious about the significance of every detail, the impact of specific incidents, the people who had left their mark here, and the reasons behind them all. I felt so blessed to be part of a group that could be led and educated by respected and genuinely kind individuals, sharing beneficial lessons along the way.
Where do I take you next to share more of Palestine’s unique beauty? With so many places and incidents to choose from, what should come next?
Each time I caught a glimpse of my surroundings, I would want to look again. The main building that stands out is undoubtedly the Dome of the Rock – its beautiful gold dome glowing at different points throughout the day. But collectively, the entire surrounding areas were fascinating to watch and stare out at. If you weren’t walking on its grounds, you wanted to be looking at it.
It was intriguing to me how the surrounding buildings all signified the religions that owned a quarter of the city. Domes with crosses on top of them could be seen everywhere you looked, synagogues, and mosques alike. A land of so much history and significance to more than one religion. It felt like reading a page of a book but not fast enough – there were just so many layers to dive into and explore.
From sunrise to sunset, entering and exiting the hotel to walk to Masjid Qibli and explore the grounds of Masjid Al Aqsa was what everyone wanted to be doing. Periods of rest were essential no doubt, but just so you felt refreshed and ready to absorb more each day. You wanted time to slow down just to savour everything you were learning and the feelings these brought. You didn’t want to miss a fraction of anything.
The portion of history one particular place can hold is incredible. We toured each quarter, beginning with the Muslim quarter and visiting places our Prophets had been. Even though there was no way of being certain about the exact place one might have stood or prayed in, there was no doubt about walking and standing where more than one Prophet had stood. And those realisations in themselves needed a moment.
From the place Maryam (A.S) used to perform her acts of worship to the area Prophet Muhammad (S.A.W) ascended from during the night journey – there were so many stories I felt like I was in the place of. Learning about the weight of the reward for performing one prayer in any section of Masjid Al Aqsa and its worth (250) truly opened my eyes to this incredibly special place and it’s significance. Wanting to visit for that reason alone, we were told, was enough.
Abu Huraira reported: The Prophet (S.A.W) said, “Do not undertake a religious journey but to three mosques: the Sacred Mosque in Mecca, the mosque of the Messenger of Allah, and the Furthest Mosque in Jerusalem.”(Sahih al Bukhari 1189, Sahih Muslim 1397)
Part 3: Conclusion
I have to be honest, I have thought over and over about how to write this piece. This final part was intended to bring attention to the realities of living as a Palestinian in Palestine – to the best of my ability. But my experiences in the last week of September couldn’t possibly come close to what their lives must be like now.
At the time, I couldn’t fathom what their lives felt like, day in and day out. And this realisation came to light a couple of times when exploring the Old City. Nearly every corner you turned you would find armed occupation forces. It was only until I had landed back home that I realised it felt like I had been holding my breath for the duration of the trip. The Palestinians live that experience on a much larger scale and so much more – every single second.
Fragments of their reality began to come to the surface soon into the trip. On one occasion, as I was sitting outside Masjid Qibli, a young woman offered me food then asked where I was from. This started a conversation I will always hold close to my heart because of the blessing it was to speak to someone who lived there. We spoke about the side of Palestine we in the West see and the actual reality. Watching the news about the country through a screen just doesn’t show the truth she explained. I asked her at one point, what was it that actually helped the country, and her response was simple; “coming and visiting” she said.
She told me about the different difficulties she had been through being born and raised in Palestine. For instance, she explained how she had grown up in the same neighbourhood as Muhammad Abu Khdeir and went into the horrors that they experienced as a community. But she also told me she had been able to travel, and no place ever felt as special as her home.
On another occasion, I spoke to a little girl, only 12 years of age. I asked her where she was from and she told me she lived in the areas surrounding Majid Al Aqsa. We spoke about school and she told me her favourite subjects. When I asked her if she wanted to travel the world, she shrugged her shoulders and said yes. I asked her where she would like to go and she said somewhere warm. I laughed and said, “isn’t it warm here?” she smiled and said yes. I told her, “Your country is beautiful” to which she nodded her head and agreed. I asked her when her favourite time to come to Masjid Al Aqsa was and she told me it was during Ramadan and expanded on what it was like on Eid. I then asked her, “did you know we don’t get the day off on Eid?” to which she looked at me in shock. Her response to me was a dua, “May Allah help you all.”
I couldn’t help but wonder about this little girl’s future. What would she feel as her understanding broadened and how would this shape her? What would become of little Lana, and where is she right now?
Journeying to The West Bank
This particular day was filled with so many experiences that needed time to digest. Transitioning from exploring the historic stories within the walls steeped in history to witnessing individuals being denied the chance to lead ordinary lives is an experience that should remain in a person’s memory. All whilst surrounded by the beauty of their country – it felt like an unbearable juxtaposition.
Beginning the tour at Jabel Mukaber (pictured) the view of the land was nothing short of breathtaking. This was the mountain in which Omar Ibn Al Khattab stood and collected the keys for Al Aqsa. In the far distance shone the golden dome of the Dome of the Rock and surrounding it, homes and rich agriculture. Gradually learning how to differentiate between a Palestinian home and homes that had been occupied was imperative to this experience. How can you visit a land and walk among those who are oppressed without knowing their reality?
Entering the West Bank, we passed through highly secured and monitored checkpoints. Cars would stop for moments at a time to be searched and their drivers questioned. At one point, a guard boarded our coach and when I looked up from taking my passport out of my bag, I saw a sea of raised hands all holding a British passport. We learnt on our coach journey that only certain passport holders are even allowed into the country.
It’s difficult to articulate the feelings that came with these experiences, but it felt as though there was a narrative being pushed. And it was clear how this narrative wanted the Palestinians and any Muslim for that matter, to feel. And it made me ask myself repeatedly: why should we constantly feel on edge when entering an area occupied predominantly by our brothers and sisters?
We passed through Al Khaleel (commonly known as Hebron) and Ariha (also referred to as Jericho). We’d journeyed to pray in Masjid Ibrahim – learning how it eventually became shared by both Muslims and Jews. But upon arrival, we found we couldn’t enter due to a Jewish celebration taking place. I paid particular attention to this neighbourhood because of how quiet and uncomfortable it felt. Before entering neighbourhoods of occupied Palestine, there were multiple signs that read: “This road leads to area A under the Palestinian Authority. The entrance for Israeli Citizens is forbidden, dangerous to your lives and is against the Israeli law.” And yet, we would still come across multiple homes that had been settled in in those areas.. It felt like the most polite impolite act I had ever come across.
The Walled Off Hotel
Designed by the London artist Banksy, The Walled Off Hotel is located in Bethlehem, and looks directly out onto the separation wall. The hotel holds beautiful pieces of artwork done by Palestinian youth.
The images speak louder than any words could, and are moments I’ve both started and concluded this piece with.
If this genocide doesn’t change us as people, what will? If finding it impossible to bury our heads in the sand during a time our brothers and sisters are being wiped out – doesn’t that mean something?
This was my experience of Palestine, its beauty and only the tip of an iceberg of its reality. There’s no room for ignorance anymore.